Back to Work

Here i go again, back to work after a year. I am kinda scared you know the rejection, the scrutiny the slamming door. Those are not things that i like to experience in my life. There are things I have taken out of my life. For example: a car. i finally let go of that metal cage I was supporting for 10 years. Eventually, I may buy another car, but not anytime soon. The cost and the insurance I cannot justify any longer. I am on public transportation and its saving me about $600 a month. I have in the past two years let go of alot of was, pork, fat in my home. I reduced my expenses and indulgent purchasing and my frivilous life style. If  drink its at home, limited my cigarettes and no drugs. I can live on less than $1500 a month. Yet I feel so drained of life. I have no real relationships or friendships. I am close to my children who are all grown and in their own lives. I live alone with my dog. I offered my key to my long term idiot boyfriend and his response was "what for".