Robert called me today, asking me if we are going to "try" it again. He says he loves me, yadda, yadda. Under no uncertain terms will I ever go back to him. I am doing very very well and i sleep so well at night. I am not seeing anyone but do plan on getting out there by summer 2008. Alot of things happend to me the last go round with Robert. But the main thing was that I always thought if he was sober, EVERYTHING WOULD BE FINE, boy was I wrong. I found out that he was not nice sober either. I mean he is just a jerk when it comes right down to it. I told him today, I am not going back to you. I am oka with the decisions i have made to leave you. Down deep inside, I'm still afraid. I told him, you know what, I spent 16 years being afraid of my first husband and 10 years being afraid of you. I'm not doing that again.