my days are full with work and my grandchildren. of course i rest on the weekends and in a couple of weeks my daughter will work days and have daycare. so i am enjoying this time with my babies. i too feel a little tired and could not sleep last night. but its oka. i just get up and do this or that have a snack or drink something. then go back to bed. i don't have the stress of waking anyone up and that feels great. except Chico my dog. i jumps up everytime i  get up. i love him very much. i lost him two weekends ago and i thought i was going to die without him. but he came back home and now i watch him like a hawk. he is a very special dog to me. he is there for me when i cry, laugh when i am sick or depressed. i never leave my side. anyway, my life is so good and i am enjoying it to the fullest. just a year ago, i was so depressed and being abused. i could not function and get things done. when i read my past journals, i thank god and my family and friends for standing by me and not judging me. i now can keep working on me and be here for my family. a relationship is not what i am looking for right now. i will go out and dance, meet people and have fun, but i will not be in a relationship for a long time. and i will not be committed to another person without my needs being met.