even though i had robert move out, i still feel the need to not let go. i have to and i will. but my mind goes to wondering where and how he is. i did not answer the phone last night and i did not call him today. when i am tempted to engage him i will remind myself that....i am not willing to help him during his alchohol recovery. i don't like him drunk or sober and i don't need the bullshit anymore. the ups and downs the questioning all the time, the you are not good enough for me shit, the non-sense.