last night i went out and drank. i feel like shit cause we are supposed to be staying sober. i want to stay sober but it is so hard. i have lost alot because of alcohol and i have gotten it all back. now that i have things in the right place, i still seem to sabotage myself. i hate me right now. i want me to be sane and safe.
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ok my mind is going to 1000 different places and i just want to go home and rest. but i have to deal with robert. he is mad at me for staying out. i don\'t blame him, i would be too.
so today i am helping tobert with on of his required classes. the questions are hard hitting and direct. we will see how he responds to this. hope all goes well.
get to a 12 step meeting! do not drag yourself down self medicating! because you know darn well whe you sober up it will all be the same as you left it and you\'ll feel worse!Robert needs to take care of himself and you need to take care of you...codependency isn\'t pretty either...support is out there! I wish you both the best! peace and love, Serenity55..Deb