I had a conversation with a lady that works in the building where i work. We have become friends since i started working here. I told her that i left robert and why. She was in complete shock. I had not realize how her perception of me is so different than my perception of myself. She said she was having a hard time even imagining me in a violent relationship because I am so strong and independent. It was almost like I had let her down, like she really looked up to me and now she seemed confused and concerned. It took me back. I was suddenly seeing me through her eyes and her comments. Very eye opening. I can only imagine how disappointed my children must be in me, cause they see me so strong and independent.