Here we go...i fk'd up. I called him last night, he hung-up. NO comments, no nothing, he just simply hung up. It hurt so fkn bad. It knocked me off my feet. I called from a pay phone of course. I just don't want to need to call him. It's just that when anything happens to me, he is the first thing that pops into my mind. Even this morning, my clutch went out and i wanted to call, but i didn't. I remember where to put the clutch fluid and i was fine and so was my car. It's like i have been conditioned to call him. That was one thing good about him, he could take care of some shit, didn't matter what it was, he always had the solution. Right now i am in what i call "Ephoric Recall". I still need to find the skill to get past this. Maybe I need him to be the one to turn his back on me. Even though I am the one that called it off, he may have to be the one to be strong enough to let me go for good. HELP!
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It wouldn\'t take a skill to get passed that pain. It\'s gonna take surrender. I remember the agony of ur situation (similar 2 mine) at one time in my life. I still remember all the useless attempts. The only skill that helped me at the time was surrendering to The Lord & allowing Him 2 take over.
Just take it one minute at a time...do you have someone else that you\'re close to who you can call when you feel like calling him? Someone who will remind you of all the crap? There are lots of people who can \"take care of some shit\" or who \"always have the solution\". You just need to find them!!!