Last evening was so bad, he is still out of town working, but he called drunk off his ass talking shit and telling to get all my shit and get the f... out of his house. That he was getting his son to come over and get me out...on an on. I just feel terrible. Then he calls this morning all nice and shit. I'M TIRED. REALLY. TIRED.
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So many times I just want to crawl into bed and stay there. Last night I was so tense that today my neck and shoulders hurt so bad. I couldn\'t sleep and i would have to make myself relax. It was almost like i was suspended in a tense position all night. Ultimately, its my responsibility to be in good relationship. I just keep hanging on. AND I AM NOT MOVING IN WITH HIM EVER AGAIN. I would rather struggle than to feel like I did last night.
THIS IS THE REASON I LEFT HIM AND I AM GLAD I DID I DESERVE BETTER IN MY LIFE THAN THIS. AND YES THE STUGGLE IS HARD, BUT I AM GOING TO MAKE IT.
put my money where my mouth is...it is very hard financially, but i have a goal and i am not going to get my eyes off the prize. the prize is peace of mind.
Since I have been back with him,,,these games have subsided. But i wonder if its cause he is under court order and may even go to jail. Is he just using me?
11.8.7 YES he was using me and i am glad i got rid of him for good. I know i did everything in my power to help him and he just did not respond in the right manner.
1/4/08 Yep, he\'s not what i want anymore. I will leave him for god to tend to.
6.2008 yes yes yes.....i am over it.