Green Smiley Monday

I had a journal written and somehow I managed to delete it!
So it went something like this:  I am finding it hard to be green and smiley these days.  It has been emotional as the daughter of Lisa's childhood friend is getting married and I went to the shower on Saturday.  I wanted to cry through the whole thing.  Lisa should have been there!  Harvey and Beth are coming for the wedding - it should be Lisa and Harvey!
I am trying to be positive and thankful for all that I have - family and friends.  However I have times of panic when I think the unthinkable - what if I lost another family member. 
It seems the longer Lisa has been gone, the more I miss her - I really do believe that she is with me but it isn't the same without the conversations, hugs, jokes etc.
But it is Monday and I did decide that I would try to find the smiley so here goes:  Cevyn, Lisa's cherished daughter is arriving on Friday.  She is coming with a friend for the Calgary Stampede and wedding.  Then we are flying back to Ottawa with them and then we head to Greece.  So it is something to smile about.  I will try not to focus on the what ifs.
I hope everyone has a great week!
Lisa:  I miss you always and love you forever.