I have been whining and complaining about our snow.  Then I turned on the television and saw the destruction in the Southern States.  I will take the snow!  I feel so sad for those who have lost loved ones.  And I hope and pray that all of you who live in those areas are safe.
Lisa's birthday is on Wednesday and Cevyn and her dad and his new partner are coming.  I was wondering what to do to celebrate Lisa on what should have been her 39th birthday.  I think I will get some gerbera daisies - they were one of her favorite flowers.  She always had them in her beetle and changed the colors regularly.  Not sure what else I will do. 
I read Linda's journal.  She talked about her friends who are uncomfortable with her grief.  I am feeling that people give me quizzical looks as I get teary eyed when I talk about Lisa.  Perhaps I am overly sensitive but I get the feeling that people think I am overreacting as it has been over a year. I should be "over it". 
My moods are so labile - I have no idea how I am going to feel or react at any given time.  I am not over it, nor will I ever be.  I will cope as best I can and function in a somewhat normal way (as normal as I ever am).  But Lisa was part of me and was my best friend.
Lisa:  I miss you terribly.  The joy left when you went to heaven.