We were going through the closet today; trying to get make room to get in to it.  I came across some of Lisa's school and after school stuff - her assignments, her medals from running, her certificates from piano, ballet.  She loved dancing and was good but didn't have the tiny boned body.  I think the hardest was finding photos from the time she was in Grade 1 until shortly after she had Cevyn, her beautiful daughter - her pride and joy.  I cried and cried, as did Joe.  It is so unbelievable, even after a year.
All the memories came flooding back.  When I saw her smile, it broke my heart again, knowing that I won't see that grin in person or hear her laugh.
We will get through Christmas because she would want it but it ain't gonna be easy.