Friends?

I have about five friends or at least I thought I did. My friend in WA sent his b-day card back with his name crossed off and deceased written above it, return to sender stamped all over it. I thought he was dead. I called him, phone was disconnected. I called his brother and he said no it wasn't true, that Howard was still amongst the living and that he'd changed his number. I haven't called him. He didn't like it when my ex built a porch shade for me out back, so Howard sent me a fold up shade that I couldn't possible assemble alone, so I told him it was nice but I couldn't use it. And I sent it back so he could get his money back. He got offended and started sending me letters saying he wasn't going to be alive come his birthday. Pity party in the mail. He wouldn't even talk to me on the phone, he'd say Howard doesn't exist anymore and hang up. I know he's sick with diabetes, but come on, being jealous over a shade. We were only friends and he knows that. I live in NM and he couldn't be here so felt sorry for Howard....boo...hoo. After knowing each other for over thirty years since high school, he pulls this immature crap. Crazy, my ex, he knows this, doesn't even live here anymore.
Then, my best friend Carol, also a diabetic and has MS, hasn't called me since X-Mas. She text me and e-mailed me said she was ok and she'd call me, still haven't heard from her!
I have another friend, from DS and he seems to know all about my friend Howard and says not to call him that he's just looking for attention. Well, he's sick and who knows when I'll hear from him again. Even if he hangs up on me at least I'll know he's still there, right?!!
My friend in NY calls to say hi once in awhile, but that's about all, but at least she lets me know she's there.
I guess my point is that my friends are either sick and don't call me at all or are sick and crazy, or are sick and think they know all.
I'm not sick and I'm trying to do all I can, work, school, a house and a dog, on my own. What is this so called friend thing? Either they are my friend unconditionally or not! Right?!!
Except for work and school I'm alone about 90 percent of the time....I don't need this _____t!
Ok, I'm done............ I think...........