I need someone to talk too. I have a boyfriend, but there is stuff I don't want to talk about with him. I am still very hurt about what he did to me. He told me that he fucked up. I am having night mares and can't sleep because of it. And I still have issues from my abusive relationship. I have to stop smoking weed now, because I have court in a month, and I have to take a drug test. So, I'm gonna be so stress with that. And I worry that Gage doesn't love me. I feel that I don't deserved to be loved. I am ugly as fuck, and I wish I was pretty. I don't know if people read this, but I do need some advice.