GRRR!!

Well, I slept all day today, because I just got my period again after only seven days. So, my PMS is bad. I woke up only a few hours ago, and I am having a minor panic attack. My mother and sister have been bitches to me, and it's really not needed. My mother is blaming for her debit card being missing, which I have not touched, and her digital camera being broken. I am ALWAYS blamed for everything that goes wrong, and I'm not going to put  up with it anymore. My sister decided today she was going to try and wake me up by throwing at book at me. She is very lucky we are staying at my grandparents right now. Because I would have snapped, and punched her in the face. I hate having such bad anger issues, but if you had to live with my family, you would understand. I also feel like a bad girlfriend at the moment, because my boyfriend is sick and I talked to him for like twenty minutes today. I feel like I am being selfish. I really want to see him, and be with him right now. But I don't think that is going to happen anytime soon, and it makes me want to cry. I haven't seen him in a week!! I also have been having nightmares about my ex...again. This past one was about me having his kids, and being stuck with him. It scared the hell out of me. Gr, I just can't handle what he did to me. It's really driving me crazy. I don't have barely anyone to talk too, besides my boyfriend. I have no friends what so ever. All of them pretty much pushed me to the side and I do not know why. I guess fuck them all. I just do not know what I am going to do. I want be high so so bad!!!!