things are still no better.living at my best mates fuck everybody else.still in what i would call a hate everybody mood.i always seem to get on with my friends.just family etc hate them.sequel not working to keep me calm no more diazapem.yesterday for the first time in my life i tried a joint.my friends smoke it once in a while.i never have.i dont take meds apart from serquel but thats not working.everythings a mess anixty horrible.barely stand it.tried it bloody hell after just one smoke everything changed.felt even more panicky at first but lay down relaxed.for the next few hours i felt great forgot about eveything.why havnt i tried this before.thinking about whether this should be a regular thing.it def will be in the short term help deal with his anxiety.