very excited and depressed.heads really sore and everything is a   mess.or it seems that way.am being very nasty towards my girlfriend family and dog.i love my dog more than anything.but am ignoring him not taking him for walks.when he comes over to me and nudges my arm i chase him.am ignoring everyone.i get like this from time to time.been like this a few days now.my family and girlfriend know what to do.leave me alone.my dog does not understand.normally like this for  several days.then i start feelimg guilty and give mty dog loads of praise and say sorry.to everyone.i know am being nasty but i cannot help it.i just hate everyone.WHY.feel no guilt about the way i treat people.ive started self harming again fucking hell first time this year.arms a mess.some quite deep cuts.i love the sight of blood.wierd.been drinking all wekend.started in the pub watching the match.increased serquel.got some diazepem for the anixty.helping a little.best thing at the moment is alchol.