feel awful today very depressed, although for the past several months the depression has been manageble. lately getting worser.since last november when i had my first severe manic attack,derpession kicked in always does when ive been on a high.ive kept a mood dairy for the past several years i reccomend eveyone with bipolar to have one.i know usualy how long my depressive episodes last including the highs.and the severity of them.even when i am feeling well i still have symtoms never really symtom free.everything is a mess at least thats how it feels.i know when the severe  depression kicks in it can last for several months fucking hate this illness.you get up feel like crap get through the day and on it goes day after day, month after month.then you start felling better but not symtom free.then the highs kick in great although you no whats next.DEPRESION.what a life.thinking about increasing my lithium from 800mg to 1000mg see what that does.