stopped my meds the other day.have my reasons mainly looking for a high.having problems with my girlfriend own doing shes done nothing wrong.i apoligized not a good aplogy awful actully she got upset she knew id stopped my meds i told her.she said you now  what happens if you go high yes i do i feel better,but i also she says can  become argiumentive and i have been known to leave for days on end worring eveyone.and she never sees me  always with my mates going out  rarely go out  only when i am high witch dosent happen often.if i loved her then i would start my meds again.only been a few days but everyone one has noticed changes already.i dont feel any different but other people do notice first.took my mornings tablets today girlfriends came over this apolgy i meant.went back to hers just watched tv. i took my meds i hate this damn illness cause so many problems BUT i cannot blame bipolar all the time yes when i am high i do things that i can i find diffcult to control  when i am manic i have no control,but that is pretty rare normally i go hypermanic.someone ive been talking to on here is spot on.keep hiding behind this illness am going to spend lot more time with my girlfriend and i must stop blaming bipolar.somthing ive done all my life.