yesterday  not a good day,stopped taking my meds celaxa, serquel, lithium, lamical do this from time to time dont know why,one of two things will happen either depression will get lot worse or i will go very high hoping for the  high,if i go high it can be great can lasts for weeks then the depression will kick in or go manic very nasty when manic.obivosly no one knows ive stopped them feeling really pissed off. i know coming of my meds will fuck me up, last time last year ended up in hospital for a week went very manic but it felt great,sometimes i need that high very good chance that it will happen.done somthing stupied been staying at mates house fell out with girlfriend not her fault. mate fetched his girlfriend round with a friend kissed nearly slept together but didnt never kissed another girl since ive been with  becca  my girl been together nearly 3 years she  understands my bipolar and me she puts up with my mood swings i can be nasty.sitting here now what do i do.my mate phoned told me that  girl  is telling people we slept together we didnt,dont want to lose her.would love any advice.