today been up my allotment  by myself first time by myself for weeks starting to get used to lighthedness and dizziness feeling more confindent,i probbaly will have more vrtigo attacks but putting that to the back of my mind.me and my girlfriend fell out basickly everyone one round me wants to do everything for me yes at first i did need a lot of help and there will be times when i again will need help but i have to start doing things for myself iike going places by myself,everyones saying what happens if you take the dog for miles hes been missing his long walks so have i being stuck in the house is not helping my bipolar feeling very depressed.i have to start going out sometime my girlfriend wanted to come with me to the garden but i said no just me and the dog she wasnt happy and left.thats up to her.