a new day

Its Sunday, I have the twins they are so full of life.  I wish I could be that carefree.  One is napping so its much easier w/ one running around .  I should start getting ready for our vacation coming up, but not really into it just yet.  I guess when I get back to work after this long weekend I'll start thinking about it more.  Being at home with my thoughts running wild, I just dont do what I need to do be it house work or going out doing something on a whim.  "Maybe later" my famous last words.   Tara has been distant, we use to help hold each other up, but now it seems to be a cold relationship.  My grandson looks just like his dad.  I miss seeing his smile, he is a very happy baby. Any advise????????????