God today is just killing me. I had to put my dog down last night and my cat tonight. Both are very old and very very sick. My kids and my little sister hates me for having to do it. Ash has been crying all day, haven't eaten anything since lunch yesterday. Joey wont look at me, Riv and Keli are so upset. Think is that harderst thing I've ever had to do before. God I'm going to lose it again. I'll put an update soon.