Well, all of us went down to the cemitary. I had to carry Ashley, she didn't want to go. I miss her so much, i cant believe she's really gone.  I mean she was my back bone and everything. We put like 5 dozen rose there an violets, those were her favoirte flowers. She used to have two little fish named Rosa and Violet. I mean, I know that I should be happy that she isn't suffering anymore from cancer but it hurts. I can't be Ashley's mom and dad and brother at once. my couins are taking her tonight, so I can be with Caitie. We are going to church for the night mass. Ashley doesn't want to go to church after my mom and her grandfather. They always play "on eagles wings" and they played that at Tony's and my mom's. I better go, all of us (peter and Melanie, Ben and Sophia, Me and caitie, Mike and Fran, and Ashley) are going to Spavones for lunch. I think Caitie's parents are going to. Ash loves it there. She already told me she is getting 2 dozen baked clams and fresh calamiri and shrimp, my expinsive little girl. Later everyone.