tryig to get over the baby now. i started going back ot bad old habbits. i got to try not to know. i'm trying to focus my attention on Keli and hayden, both hurt very badly. God bless that litle girl. she has been so much in such little time. i would hate to se something happen to her. thats like another ashley to me, i love that little girl, i wish i could do something but i cant get on a plane to london.
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I know that you are hurting so much right now, and I\'m so sorry for what you are going through, sweetheart...
As you are trying to deal with this pain, please keep in mind that there are people around you, that care about you so much.
There are many ways to grieve, and some are not healthy ways.
Please stay away from the ones that sre not. (smoking pot... not a heathy way... pot is a depressant.)
I used to smoke it myself, until about 5 years ago. That is when I realized that it was making me worse, not better. (my depression.)
Same thing goes for alcohol... it is a depressant, so you should not turn to it, either, as you grieve this baby that you lost.
I care so much about all of you, honey... I want to see you all heal as best, and as quickly, as possible. Turning to these things will only prolong the whole process. (and it will actually make it worse.)
Keep in mind that you are not the only one grieving... you need to be there, and be strong for Catie. She, too, is in a lot of pain over this.
Be a strong shoulder for her to lean on. She needs you now, more than ever. Don\'t let her down.
Please call me if you want to talk. You have my number.