why

Why do i feel like there is just no point anymore. ive been to plenty of points in my life where there just didnt' seem to have a light at the end, but this just seems to be worse than any. how is it that life just seems to get worse the older you get? i have done so much to alienate everyone around me, which disappoints me. ive known people less than a few weeks who judge me less than my own family does. 
Taking a poll - how many people have been judged harshly and/or disowned by their own family because of something that you did, or something that were or weren't supposed to do? I'd listen to everyone's story out there and understand everything I could hear - without judgement and/or self-rightousnous.