JUST A THOUGHT-  I was just thinking for all thoses years out in the madness all I thought about 24/7 was chasing that effect I so desire. Either I was doing it or thinking about  Today I  have the choice not  to do that. What a relief.  Grateful today I have been able to learn about this disease of addiction. This deal kills on a daily basis and there was a time I asked myself many times  why wasn't I  one of thoses that didn't make it because of my history, but today I nolonger ask why. IT IS WHAT IT IS