Just finished my 2nd 4th step I have been going to do it for 3 months and finalLy tonight I did it.  I never thought I did my 1st one right but looking at it again it's really just the same only worded diffrently.  So many people have a hard time doing this like myself  but it states right in the 4th step FEARLESS well it might say that but I don't know to many and I know  a quite a few that was fearless when they ffinally   done it.  Mine basiclly came down to fear and self-esteem it's right their on page 45i n the book.  Before coming to the program and listening and working the steps I never would have thought I had fear.  I was  the type always lived on the edge party sex drugs drinking and rock n roll. I always thought I would dir young so I thought it did'nt matter. . Most everything I did  wrong was surrounded by drinking and taking pills.  But concidering out of 35 years I was lucky to be straight 6 months total out of all that time was always on some type of mind altering substance, what should I have expected.  The truth does set you free, since my last 4th step I need to make 2 more amends that I forgot about.  Well I guess that is it for today this stuff can wipe you out mentally.  Very grateful this is the weekend I need some rest......TILL NEXT TIME