What a day,  as I go forward in my business do things one way then another loose patients I discovered  hello its all about CHANGE, patients as I mentioned and just keep going  forward.  Had a dream I was out in the madness, I do not get many on these but after relizing what was going onI felt what it was like all over again did a bit on 11 step work and went on.  For me Icould never just go on before I always needed to change my feeling with some type on mind altering substance so I didnt have deal with it today I dont have to do that anymore or (just for today) . Had another reminder thatare addictions  KILL I guy I went to school with has been in and out of the program died today from are deal at home and along last time I seem him was a week ago tuesday at a meeting  I didnt talk to him had other things going, and my just thought today when I heard it was what if I would have said something to him ect.. could I have made a diffrence, well I didnt stay there to long  maybe I could have maybe not but I vcant think in what ifs Need to stay in the day and as I say IT IS WHAT IT IS  till next time