Well finally updated my profile, really dont know why I didnt do it before. Yesterday went to 2 meeting, one of with I heard something I never heard before. In are preamble it states Rarley have we seen a person fail.... and a good friend of mind said If you learn and live the 12 steps read the book stick around clean and sober people theres about a 100percent chance you wont relapse. That made sence to me to a point, I believe there are no apsolouts (?) I dont care what it is, but thats my opinion. But it sure doent hurt following his advice. Then as I got home to go to work I reieved a call from a friend that really needed a meeting, had alot to do but I went to the meeting with her. Everything turned out great she felt better I learned something new in the meeting still got home to do what needed to be done, I dont ask why anymore how things turn out they just do. (most the time) theres always those days!! Today I didnt feel well so I just did what needed to be done, before I would be out somewhere getting what ever just to feel better NOW I am very grateful I nolongr have to do that.. TILL NEXT TIME