I'm starting to think I'm pregnant--but there is still that wondering.  I can't stop thinking about it!  I do feel that if I am pregnant, I will be so grateful.  If there was any way to be more grateful than I was when I found out I was going to have a baby last time, I would be more grateful now.  However, we can add my daughter's gratitude to our own, because she still talks about having a brother.  If I am pregnant, I am not guilty for having another, because I think it is best for my daughter (& good moms put their children first--after DH that is), but I do have to ask WHY? for those who are still waiting.  I wonder why it wasn't Deven--she's been waiting for over seven years!  I truly wish that there was a way I could help those who suffer with infertility.  I know, no matter what, I'll keep praying & hoping that soon these sweet women will feel the joy of motherhood.  Today & tomorrow will be very busy because we are putting on a big dinner for the ladies in our church group.  At this meeting, we will be putting together school kits for humanitarian aid.  I'm going to be sewing school bags all day.  I'm hoping this will help the time go by faster.  I can't wait to get that BFP!  Yippee!  I just can't believe that this might be happening!