I want to disapear, I feel useless and so unloved. I know I should be happy even extatic to be done high school but instead I feel like a failure. Like it doesn't matter how much I do I will never be good enough. For her or me.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Precious Stephanie, you have accomplished your first goal in life to graduate from highschool:) Now, don\'t disappear, but put your wings on and fly. You are not a failure. You have just begun to see a new life waiting for you after graduation. Now fly little girl and see your other goals fulfilled. There will still be disappointments in life, but you are not one of them. Always remember to seek help in your lowest times, we can\'t always do it alone. Fly little girl, to open your doors and become you, Stephanie, helping people as you want to do. Nursing, volunteering, wherever you care to go. Your door has been swung open, now make your world a beautiful Stephanie world. With me in it. I love you. There are others that love you to. Sometimes we just can\'t feel it. But try to love yourself and make the choices that are good for you. Now is the beginning, not the end. Loving you always, mum
deleted_user
deleted_user

wonderful words of wisdom and truth! Congratulations on your high school graduation...last time we chatted you told me you were interested in nursing. Pursue your interest....take it slowly. If a 4 year university it too big a step right now then begin with a two year program...or just begin by doing a little bit of volunteer work this summer. You have much to offer this world! The most important thing you can do is to get the help you need when you\'re feeling down AND when things are looking up as welll. Keep your journal going...it\'s so good to get our thoughts out on paper. Surround yourself with positive thinkinng people....no downers, whiners or complainers...they bring our spirits down.
I\'m praying for you....the man upstairs never lets me down.
fluterify
fluterify

Thank- you both of you! :) :\'(
blackdog999
blackdog999

you are good enough...you have to love yourself...we are brought up believing its our families job to love us....and this belief results in alot of pain and disappointment...what no one ever bothers to tell you is this.....usually other people are hurting and often confused in some way this can result in them doing things that make no sense to us...and sometimes it means they can\'t even see us at all...they just relive the hurt of their past over and over....and you can get sucked into this and hurt.....what is the answer? detach from all people....and learn to love yourself for you are beautiful and this is the other truth no one ever tells you it is actually YOUR job to love and admire yourself...once this is work is done and you are able to love yourself fully and be proud of yourself (which you jolly well should be young lady) then you are able to turn round and start loving everyone else and the things they do wont hurt you so much anymore because you are already well loved (by you) and you now understand the bad stuff they do to you is not actually about you at all even though it may focus entirely on you

hang in there

I think your great xxx hug xxx