I'm Back!

I saw on the news today that sex addiction is an official mental disorder. I can try to put blinders on and pretend I am just fine, but I know that I am obsessed with sex and porn. Last week I had horrible (protected) sex with a very older and unattractive woman  that I met on craigslist. That was an all time low for me. It disgusted me so much that I decided to give up porn and masturbating. With much work I hoped to remove all lust from my heart. I also gave up marijuana and alcohol because I thought those thing will lead me back to the porn. After 3 days I was working in a music producer friend and I smoked weed with him. The next day I was back to porn and drinking.
 
So here i go again. I really want to have a healthy relationship with someone. I would also like to be the best me I can.