Yesterday was very hard for me. My best friend who initially was my support through this journey of ttc had her beautiful baby girl. I am very happy for my friend and i love her to death. I just cant help but wish it was me. I am feeling very low today because i dont understand, Why me? Im trying to stay positive but it is very hard. I am also very nervous about going through with IVF because i really want this to work on the first try because this is very nerve recking and stressful.