Today is christmas eve. Have not gambled since the 11th...only because i lost every last dime. Very sad Christmas. Nobidy except this site knows i have an addiction. The man ive loved and lived with for almost five years desnt know. He would never understand this kind if insanity. I dont understand it....
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Ring - I am not sure how he couldn\'t know something is going on if you are living with him - but it doesn\'t matter. What does matter is that you get better and start to understand your addiction and accept that you can\'t gamble and that your life will be so much better without it. Read as much as you can on gambling addiction and do what is suggested - no access to money, ban yourself if necessary, get to meetings. Come here often. You need to get the secret out so you can get support and get better. Congratulations on your clean days! Keep at it. Glad you are back. Don\'t be a stranger!!
This is my therapy. My reading all the gambling stories does me more good than anything. I only gambled a couple of times a month usually. It used to be almost daily. For the last four years i had to cut back or he would of found out. Its complicated. However this month i really screwed up and lost lots. Fortunately i dont owe any check cashers or friends or family money. But i am determined to stop the insanity. Thank you, but this is one secret he cant know. Hes extremely opposed to gambling. Keeping busy is key right now.