Putting down these thoughts that are revolving inside my head would be impossible. There's a spider in my head weaving a web of SHIT. I'm not happy. I don't know where my life is going. My life is one bad event after another. I'm always anxious, and I feel like it's taking me away from living my life. I do things that I don't want to do. I do things that I don't believe in. I do things that ruin the possibility of happiness. What a life. I don't know who I am. I don't know what to do. FUCK MY LIFE. No one is like me. I have nothing in common with ANYONE. I have NO ONE to hang out with. High school is another fucking mess. I don't deserve to worship Christ. What am I going to do in the future? I'll probably end up living alone, dealing with the same thing that I'm dealing with now. I'm fifteen, but I feel like I'm forty. I feel like a stone; all I do is lay around and watch everything and everybody LIVE around me. I'm ugly too. lol I'm an ugly rock with a spider spinning a web of shit in my head. Fantastic!
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You have lots of time to figure out who you are. I still am not always sure who I am and im 21 lol. Things will get better. Just take everything one day at a time. Dont stress about things you cant change. If you worry about everything you will go crazy. Trust me, I know. Find something that makes you happy. Also, try to surround yourself with people you enjoy being around. If you need to change some things in your life then do it. But work on 1 thing at a time and remember to breathe.
Feel free to talk to me if you ever need. ive been 15 years old, lol. I know its hard as shit and other problems you may have just make it that much harder.
Also, you are not ugly. And I know me saying that isnt going to convince you. So, I suggest you do what I do. When I feel like crap I do something different. If I paint my nails or spend extra time on makeup or I dye my hair a new color it gives me a little boost. lol I dont know why but it always helps.
When you say you have nothing in common with anyone it reminded me of an old song from Amanda Marshall. Its called Everybody\'s Got A Story. You should listen to it sometime. Let me know what you think. Its kinda about how you can see someone and think you know them but you dont know their whole story or their situation or what has happened to them. Its an old song but i like it, lol