just finished up another round of steroids. I still feel lousy. doctor hollered at me for not taking the baclofen and nuerontin regularly. i tremor so much more and am s frickin dizzy. I hate all these meds and i hate ms!
I have certainly had better days...life goes on. i have been and will continue to watch my twin brother kill himself by excessive drinking and smoking during his bladder cancer. i don\'t hink he wants to live any more. Why so I get to witness this? I guess God is telling/teaching me something here. is this his way of re-warning me to quit smoking. I am sure that my MS would ease up if I do. It\'s just soooooooooo hard to quit!!!! It\'s been my crutch for aver 40 years now. (Dear god in Heaven,PLEASE help me to quit!)
I made several posts today, many to lift my mood, and some to vent. I read all of the other psts to get out of myself...today is a hard one :(
I have returned to a better diet, and I have cut back on my smoking. when this carton is gone--the cigarettes are gone. NO MORE. I will take the 3 bucks and go out for a cup of good coffee. My SSD doesnt really stretch far enough for the luxury of killing myself with cigarettes. Watching what Marty is going through is really impacting me to quit also.
Better days are comin...as glenn always said. I miss Glenn horrifically!
If you can hear me, Glenn, I can\'t wait to see you again and hang you myself!!! It still hurts big-time what you did. I so miss you even though you thought you impacted no one here on earth. You did, and I can\'t wait to hang you myself!
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I have certainly had better days...life goes on. i have been and will continue to watch my twin brother kill himself by excessive drinking and smoking during his bladder cancer. i don\'t hink he wants to live any more. Why so I get to witness this? I guess God is telling/teaching me something here. is this his way of re-warning me to quit smoking. I am sure that my MS would ease up if I do. It\'s just soooooooooo hard to quit!!!! It\'s been my crutch for aver 40 years now. (Dear god in Heaven,PLEASE help me to quit!)
I made several posts today, many to lift my mood, and some to vent. I read all of the other psts to get out of myself...today is a hard one :(
I have returned to a better diet, and I have cut back on my smoking. when this carton is gone--the cigarettes are gone. NO MORE. I will take the 3 bucks and go out for a cup of good coffee. My SSD doesnt really stretch far enough for the luxury of killing myself with cigarettes. Watching what Marty is going through is really impacting me to quit also.
Better days are comin...as glenn always said. I miss Glenn horrifically!
If you can hear me, Glenn, I can\'t wait to see you again and hang you myself!!! It still hurts big-time what you did. I so miss you even though you thought you impacted no one here on earth. You did, and I can\'t wait to hang you myself!
I guess the journal does work , and I figured ot out again. Well, till next time.....