Wednesday

Feels good to be back again.  I've been dx'd with trigeminal neuralgia in the left side of my head/face. It is really painful but almost under control with an anti-seizure medication. My bipolar is doing very, very well with Seroquel at 120 mg. a day.  This drug is my lifesaver.  Also works for my anxiety. My OCD has calmed down a lot over the years with time. I was dx'd at 19 and i' now 59. I have very few issues with it. Mostly small things such as getting "just right" in bed at night, certain repeated thoughts that are easier to dismiss, etc.  Depression is minimal. I worry about my weight since I don't  get enough exercise. This morning before anyone was out, I sneaked outside and did a short walk real fast around the block..you have no idea the courage it took me to do that. I prayed no one would see me....but i'm desperate for exercise.  My ankles swell during the day..and my knees don't work very well with a lot of weight on me.  So today...I'll strive to stay positive, not over think and enjoy whatever life happens to throw my way. I have no friends besides ones I happen to meet on the internet and my room mate who works all day so it's kind of a challenge not to get lonely.  Mom and Dad live in the house next door. They are elderly (late 80's and 90) and mom is very active.  Should be me taking care of them..unfortunately I'm not able to do much and it really works on my mind/heart. ok so much for today's journal. I'm off to meet the rest of the day.  If you read this..hope you have a great day...