PSALM 13TALKIN’ ISH IN THE NAME OF JESUS:  NOW IS THAT BLASPHEMY, OR WHAT.    AS THE PIONEER CHRISTIAN RAP GROUP, DC TALK FIRST PUT IT IN THE EARLY 90’S, “GOD’S DOIN’ A NEW THING.”  NOW, IN THESE “LAST DAY’S,” IN THIS NEW YEAR OF 2007 THE THING TO ASK IS, “TO CURSE OR NOT TO CURSE” THAT IS THE QUESTION.  UFF IT, LET’S CURSE.  THE ONLY ONE’S THAT REALLY GET TERRIBLY OFFENDED BY CURSING ARE MOST CHRISTIANS, MOST EMPLOYERS, AND MOST MAIN-STREAM MEDIA OUTLETS, BUT AS FOR THE REST OF US COMMEN FOLK OF THE WORLD, WE’RE ALL UFFIN CUSSIN’.  I MEAN, IF YOUR GETTING CUSSED THE UFF OUT, THAT’S JUST NOT TOLERATED BY ANYONE, BUT IF YOU USE A FEW SWEAR WORDS HERE AND THERE, YOU’RE A) GONNA GET MORE ATTENTION TO WHAT THE UFF YOU’RE SAYING WHETHER IT IS POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE, AND B) IT ADDS A GREATER EMPHASIS TO THE MOTHERUFFIN POINT THAT YOUR TRYING TO MAKE.  YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN?  IF YOU WOULD ALL GET THE UFF OFF YOUR HIGH-HORSES FOR A MINUTE AND THINK ABOUT IT, YOU KNOW THAT I’M RIGHT.  THINK ABOUT YOUR FAVORITE SONG, OR YOUR FAVORITE COMEDIAN, OR EVAN A FAVORITE MOVIE, CHANCES ARE NOW-A-DAYS THAT THERE’S AT LEAST ONE LINE IN THERE THAT YOU ENJOY WHERE THE ARTIST IS CUSSING WHEN IT IS ABSOLUTELY APPROPRIATE.  YES, IT’S SIN.  SIN IS STILL SIN, AND THERE IS A PAINFUL CONSEQUENCE FOR ALL SIN, AND I WILL NEVER DENY THAT.  (TRUST ME, I KNOW.)  I ALSO FIRMLY BELIEVE THAT THERE WAS A MAN WHO PAID THE PRICE FOR ALL SIN.  HE WAS A MAN WHO WALKED THIS EARTH OVER 2000 YEARS AGO NAMED JESUS CHRIST WHO WAS BORN FROM A VIRGEN, LIVED A SINLESS LIFE, AND LITTERLY GOT THE LIVING ISH BEAT OUT OF HIM FOR NO REASON EXCEPT FOR BEING SENT BY GOD AND LIVING OUT HIS FATHER’S PURPOSE (“DON’T YOU WANT TO GROW UP TO BE JUST LIKE ME”).  COME ON DAWG, YOU READ THE BOOK, OR AT LEAST SAW “THE PASSION OF THE CHRIST.”  MY HOMEBOY, MY NIGGA, JES…..(HOLD UP, NOW WAIT JUST A DAMN MINUTE.  YOU’RE WHITE.)  OH YEAH DAWG, MY BAD.  LIKE I WAS SAYIN’, MY HOMEBOY, JESUS, DIDN’T CUSS, DIDN’T SMOKE ANY STICKY GREEN ISH, AND DIDN’T EVEN HAVE ANY SEX…..(DAMN,) HE HAD A LITTLE WINE, BUT HE MADE THE ISH, MAN, YOU GOTTA DRINK THE ISH YOU MAKE.  ANYWAY, HE LEAD A PERFECT LIFE ACCORDING TO THE LAW OF THE TIME AND DIED BRUTALLY ON THE CROSS, AND THAT WAS AFTER HE HAD TO CARRY THAT BIG OL’ MOTHERUFFIN CROSS UP THAT HILL WHILE HE WAS GUSHING OUT BLOOD ACROSS THAT ENTIRE HILL WITH EVERY AGONIZING STEP HE TOOK.  NOW THAT’S SOME GANGSTA ISH.  BUT GUESS WHAT MY THUG NATION…..(WHAT?)  HE BASICLY GAVE A BIG “UFF YOU” TO THE PEOPLE THAT KILLED HIM, (NOW IS THAT BLASPHEMOUS OR WHAT) BECAUSE AFTER THREE DAYS OF DEATH, HE SAID “UFF THIS.  I AIN’T HAVIN’ THIS ISH NO MORE,” AND ROSE FROM THE DEAD AND ROLLED AWAY THE LARGE STONE AND SAID, “YEAH BABY, THAT’S WHAT I’M TALKIN’ ‘BOUT, I’M UP OUT THIS BEYOCH.”  I KNOW, I KNOW.  YOU’RE PROBABLY THINKIN’, “OH, THERE HE GOES, AGAIN, MORE UFFIN BLASPHEMY.”  COME ON PEOPLE.  THINK ABOUT IT IN TODAY’S WORLD AND CULTURE.  MAKE JESUS REAL IN YOUR EVERY DAY WORLD, AND FOR CHRIST’S SAKE IN EACH ONE OF YOUR HEART’S AND SOUL’S.  HE WAS THE REAL O.G. (ORIGINAL GANGSTA)(IF I WAS DOING THIS ON STAGE, I WOULD STAND IN FRONT OF THE MIC STAND AND USE THE MIC TO NAIL UNSEEN SPIKES INTO EACH WRIST AND DO MY “T.O. STAR POSE.” WHILE LOOKING UP TO HEAVEN FOR A MOMENT AND THEN DROP MY HEAD AS IF DEAD FOR 3 SECONDS.  THEN I WOULD POUND MY FIST AGAINST MY HEART 2 TIMES AND POINT TO THE SKY WITH MY INDEX FINGER WHILE SAYING, “I LOVE YOU DAD.”  THEN MY MIDDLE FINGER WOULD RISE BESIDE MY INDEX FINGER TO THE SKY WHILE SAYING, “I LOVE YOU JESUS.”  THEN LOWER MY HAND WITH THE “PEACE SIGN” AND SAY, “YOU SEE THE RABBIT ‘CAUSE I DO.  THAT’S MY DAD YA’LL.  MY PEACE I GIVE TO ALL OF YOU, AND I’M OUT.  THAT’S MY TIME YA’LL.  THANK YOU AND GOODNIGHT…GO GET U SOME”)E-MAIL COMMENTS TO GZUS THUG@MSN.COM:   I CAN’T WAIT TO HERE FROM YOUR NEW HEART, NEW MIND, NEW SOUL, AND NEW SPIRIT.  BE A TRUE CHRISTIAN…LIVE BY THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB. FUCK THE LAW, AND THOSE THAT ARE TRYING TO UPHOLD IT.  I’M COMING TO END YOUR REIGN.  BELIEVE IT!!!MOSES BROUGHT IT,JUSUS FORFILLED IT, AND GZUS THUG WILL ABOLISH IT.SO HELP ME GOD.AMEN AND AMENSO BE IT! IT IS FINISHED (TRULY)!!!PEACE AND LOVE ROB AND DEUCE. ETERNALLY! PSALM 14(7X2)                 12/18/2006 AKA OUR 7TH AND FINAL WEDDING ANNIVERSARY (IT IS FINISHED!!!)DEAR SUZANNE AKA ZANNE AKA MY BABY’S MAMA,  LET ME START WITH THANKING YOU FOR SPENDING THE LAST 10 YEARS OF YOUR LIFE WITH ME THROUGH THE GOOD TIMES AND THE MANY BAD TIMES.  I REALLY DON’T KNOW YOU THAT WELL AT ALL, AND THE THINGS THAT I DO KNOW OF YOU, I REALLY DON’T PERSONALLY CONSIDER AS VALUABLE TRAITS AKA YOU’RE A LOSER AND A HATER.  I DO COMMEND YOU HOWEVER, FOR BEING FAITHFUL AND LOYAL FOR MOST OF THESE 10 YEARS.  YOU ALREADY KNOW WHAT I KNOW YOUR 2 VERY BEST TRAITS TO BE, BUT IF YOU DON’T, IT WOULD BE THAT YOU ARE THE MOST OUTSTANDING MOTHER TO OUR PRECIOUS SON, DEUCE THAT I COULD HAVE EVER DREAMED OF, AND YOU’RE THE BEST KISSER WITH THE WETTEST AND SWEETEST “MEOOOWWW” THAT I EVER COULD HAVE DREAMED OF AS WELL, AND FOR THAT, I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL.  YOU TRULY ARE THE “MOTHER OF THE YEAR” FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS OF HIS LIFE AS WELL AS “THE GREATEST SEX I HAVE EVER HAD,” OR AT LEAST ON THOSE FEW OCCASIONS WHEN YOU DID “SURRENDER THE BOOTY.” I DO HOPE THAT I CAN HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO LIVE UP TO THE DAD THAT MY DAD WAS, FOR IT IS THE GOAL THAT DRIVES ME ON A DAILY BASIS, EVEN WHEN YOU DON’T PERMIT ME TO SEE MY ONLY BEGOTTEN SON.  I DO KNOW WHAT GOD IS DOING IN MY LIFE WITH THE RIPPING OUT OF MY HEART DAILY DURING THIS TIME OF DEATH, DISIPLINE, AND WILDERNESS AKA BOOTCAMP FOR THE 7X7 (49) DAYS BETWEEN NOVEMBER 13TH AND THE 1ST DAY OF THE YEAR OF THE 7.  I ALSO KNOW THAT IF IT WAS UP TO YOU, I WOULD NEVER EVER SEE MY BELOVED SON AGAIN.  I DO BELIEVE THAT I WILL ALSO BE AWARDED AT LEAST 40/60 JOINT CUSTODY OF HIM WHEN THIS ALL GOES TO TRIAL, AND THAT IS WITH MY ONLY “LAWYER” BEING JESUS CHRIST AND THE HOLY SPIRIT.  I DON’T WANT TO FIGHT WITH YOU OVER DEUCE, BUT I WILL NOT LOSE HIM EITHER.  I WAS BORN TO BE A DADDY JUST LIKE MY DADDY WAS FOR ONLY 13.99 YEARS TO ME.  I WILL FIGHT EVERDAY OF 2007 TO BE ALL THE DAD THAT MINE WAS FOR ME AND SO MUCH MORE, AND I DO NOT LOSE ANY BATTLES.  I FIGHT UNTIL THAT BATTLE IS WON OR I DROP DEAD JUST LIKE MY DAD DID.  YOU DON’T HAVE A PRAYER’S CHANCE IN HELL OF VICTORY OVER ME.  “BELIEVE IT!”WITH ALL THAT BEING SAID, I WOULD LIKE TO PROVIDE YOU WITH A FEW MORE SPIKES FOR MY CROSS THAT YOU DESIRE TO NAIL ME TO.  “I AM NOT A REAL SHARK SLAYER,” BUT I DID HAVE SEX FOR ONE NIGHT WITH DANYELLE DURING THE TIME OF ARE FIRST SEPERATION.  THE EXACT DATE WAS SEPTEMBER 10, 2005 FOR THOSE SCORING AT HOME.  IT WAS AT HER PLACE AND THAT WAS THE ONLY OTHER TIME THAT I HAVE EVER HAD PHYSICAL CONTACT WITH HER.  AS YOU KNOW, SHE DID MOVE IN AND OUT OF MY HOUSE DURING THE FIRST WEEK OF DECEMBER, 2006, BUT I RARELY EVEN SAW HER LET ALONE HAVE ANY INTIMATE CONTACT WITH HER.  IT IS SOMETHING THAT I HAD A VISION ABOUT AND I HAD TO KNOCK ON THE DOOR AND SEE IF THERE WAS ANYTHING IN MY SOUL FOR HER, AND AFTER 7 DAYS, I REALIZED THAT THERE WASN’T, AND SHE ALREADY HAD A MAN WHO REALLY LOVED HER AS WELL AS HER YOUNGEST SON, AND WHEN I DISCOVERED THAT THERE WAS A “CIRCLE OF LOVE” THERE, I TOLD HER THAT SHE SHOULD BE WITH THE ONE SHE LOVED AND IT WASN’T ME AND WE BOTH KNEW IT.  BESIDES, ONCE MY MINISTRY GETS STARTED DURING THE YEAR OF THE 7, I SHOULDN’T BE TIED DOWN TO JUST ONE WOMAN.  THERE IS A LOT OF WOMEN OUT THERE WHO NEED MY LOVE WHEN IT IS “LEGAL” FOR ME TO DO SO, AND I PLAN ON HELPING ALL OF THEM.  I MEAN, HELL, YOU’VE ALREADY BEEN WITH 6 MEN, AND MY 1.2 JUST DOESN’T CUT IT FOR ALL THE PASSION THAT I HAVE IN MY SOUL.  I DO “PUT THE KITTY, KITTY ON A PEDASTAL,”AS YOU WELL KNOW, AND MOST WOMEN WILL LOVE THAT ABOUT ME, AND I JUST CAN’T LET MY LADIES DOWN.  THEY MUST “SURRENDER THE BOOTY.”    “I KNOW YOU DON’T WANT ME TO SHINE, BUT I’M GONNA SHINE ANYWAY.  BECAUSE I LOVE ME SOME ME…BELIEVE IT!” (T.O.)AS WELL AS...(MY 6 PASSIONS IN LIFE)  I LOVE ME SOME DEUCE…BELIEVE IT!I LOVE ME SOME JESUS…BELIEVE IT!I LOVE ME SOME COWBOYS…BELIEVE IT!I LOVE ME SOME HIP-HOP…BELIEVE IT!I LOVE ME SOME GOLF…BELIEVE IT!OH, AND AS YOU ALSO ALREADY KNOW PERSONALLY…  I LOVE ME SOME PUSSY…DEFINITELY BELIEVE IT!BITCH!!!P.S.  HOW’S THE EYE.  YOU MOTHERFUCKIN’ SERPANT!!!  PSALM 15     WELL, ROCK BOTTEM HAS HIT, AND I JUST WONDERED IF I WOULD BE ABLE TO PICK MYSELF UP OFF THE FLOOR THIS TIME.  I WORSHIP GOD, AND WANT TO BE LIKE JESUS SO MUCH, FOR HE IS THE ONLY FRIEND THAT HAS STAYED WITH ME REGARDLESS OF MY SINS SINCE APRIL 7, 1993, BUT THAT I AM NOT.  I HOPE AND PRAY, THAT HE CAN PICK ME UP OFF THE FLOOR DESPITE THE DAMAGE THAT I HAVE INFLICTED UPON MY LIFE.  I AM BEGINNING TO BELIEVE EVERYONE THAT I AM CRAZY, AND I DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE, BUT I AM TOO MUCH OF A COWARD TO END IT.  THAT TAKES SOME BALLS THAT I REALLY DON'T HAVE.  I REALLY HATE THIS DISEASE, BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE A WALKING ZOMBIE EITHER.  I DO LIKE MY PERSONALITY AND BOLDNESS AND CARISSMA.  I WANT SO MUCH TO BE RICH AND FAMOUS TO SERVE THE KINGDOM OF GOD THAT I GUESS I REACHED A POINT OF DISALLUSIONMENT.  I JUST WANTED TO BE UNDERSTOOD THAT I AM THE WAY I AM BECAUSE MY LIFE WAS SO FUCKED UP.  I HAVE NEVER BEEN A DRUG ADDICT OR AN ALCHOHOL ABUSER, YET THOSE ARE ACCEPTABLE CRIMES IN OUR SOCIETY.  WHAT IS MY CRIME?  YES, I KNOW THAT I HIT ANOTHER HUMAN BEING, AND FOR THAT I AM VERY SORRY.  I DID APOLOGIZE TO SUZANNE ON SATURDAY, BUT GOT THE "OK...OK...OK..."  WHICH MEANS “I DON'T HEAR OR ACCEPT YOU AND I AM STILL GOING TO BURY YOU AND MAKE IT SO YOU FORGET THAT YOU EVER HAD A BOY NAMED DEUCE.  HE IS ALL MINE, AND I WILL MAKE HIM FORGET THAT HE EVER HAD A DAD AKA A SPERM DONER.”  USUALLY THE SPERM DONERS ARE THE ONES WHO DON'T WANT A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE KIDS.  THAT COULD NOT BE FURTHER FROM THE TRUTH FOR ME.  I LOVE THAT BOY WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING, AND PRAY FOR THE DAY WHEN HE COMES TO FIND ME.  HIS SUNDAY SCHOOL TEACHER TOLD ME, THAT DEUCE DOES HAVE A DEFINATE BOND WITH ME, AND HE SAW IT CONSTANTLY PLAIN AS DAY.  THAT WAS A LITTLE ENCOURAGING.  I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO BE A DADDY, AND NOW IT IS THE ONE THING IN THIS WORLD THAT I WOULD THROW A PUNCH FOR.  THE ONLY THING THAT WOULD BRING ME INTO A FIGHT WOULD BE IF SOMEONE TRIED TO TAKE MY SON AWAY FROM ME.  WELL, THAT HAS HAPPENED, AND I DID THROW A PUNCH.  WHO IS THE ONE BEING TORTURED HERE?  THE ONE THAT GOT PUNCHED OR THE ONE WHO HAS HAD HIS ONLY SON TAKEN FROM HIM SINCE NOVEMBER 13 OF 2006.  ALL I WANT IN THIS WORLD IS TO BE A DADDY TO THAT BOY FOR 68 HOURS A WEEK.  I JUST WANT TO BE A PART OF HIS LIFE, AND THAT HAS BEEN RIPPED AWAY FROM ME, AND FOR WHAT...A PUNCH, A CUP OF HOT SOUP, A STATEMENT IN ANGER, A SUPPOSED DISEASE...EVERYTHING I SAY AND DO WILL BE USED AGAINST ME IN A COURT OF LAW.  I GUESS SO.  IS MY CRIME OF BEING PASSIONATE ABOUT MY SON THAT SEVERE THAT I WILL LOSE HIM AS IF I AM DEAD BUT STILL OF THE LIVING.  I REALLY HAD MY DAD DIE.  IT IS NOT A NICE EXPERIENCE TO HAVE TO GO THROUGH.  IT CAN RUIN A YOUNG CHILDS ENTIRE LIFE.  WHO IS MY ADVOCATE?  WHO IS IN MY CORNER?  WHO SEES THE INJUSTICE TAKING PLACE, AND WILL NOT STAND FOR IT, AND WILL FIGHT FOR ME TO LOSE THE GAME, BUT STILL BE ALLOWED TO PLAY.  THERE WILL ALWAYS BE 168 HOURS IN A WEEK, AND I AM ASKING FOR BUT 68 OF THEM LEAVING THE OTHER 100 FOR HIS MOMMY.  IF THE ROLES WERE REVERSED, I COULD NEVER TAKE DEUCE AWAY FROM HIS MOMMY FOR SUCH A TORTUROUS AMOUT OF TIME...THAT IS JUST CRUEL AND UNUSUAL PUNISHMENT.  I DON'T HAVE THAT MUCH HATE IN ME TO EVER TAKE A BOY AWAY FROM HIS MOMMY.  NO MATTER WHAT.  SO WHY CAN ANOTHER HUMAN BEING DO THAT TO ME, AND IT IS JUST PERFECTLY ACCEPTABLE, WHERE IS THE OUTRAGE ON MY BEHALF?  I OBVIOUSLY CAN NOT FIGHT MY OWN BATTLE HERE.  THIS SOCIETY ALLOWS PAID LAWYERS TO FIGHT BATTLES IN FRONT OF A JUDGE TO DECIDE THE RIGHTOUS AND THE GUILTY PARTY.  WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO A COMPROMISE BETWEEN ADULTS WITH MATURITY AND DIGNITY?  NOT, “I DON'T KNOW...WE WILL LET A JUDGE DECIDE YOUR FATE.  I PERSONALLY WILL NEVER ALLOW YOU TO EVER SEE YOUR ONLY SON AGAIN.  YOUR ONLY CHANCE IN HELL IS FOR A JUDGE TO ALLOW YOU TO BE A FATHER, AND GOOD LUCK WITH ALL THE LAWYERS AND FRIENDS THAT I HAVE AGAINST YOU RIGHT NOW.  WHO DO YOU HAVE ROBERT?  IT LOOKS TO ME LIKE YOU HAVE NOBODY ON YOUR SIDE, SO GUESS WHAT I WIN.  OH AND ANOTHER THING, THANK YOU FOR MAKING LOVE TO ME ON THAT NIGHT SO I COULD HAVE THE GREATEST GIFT OF BEING A MOTHER TO SUCH A WONDERFUL SON.  YOUR SPERM DID A GREAT JOB OF FORFILLING MY DESIRE TO BE A MOM.  NOW CAN YOU GO AWAY AND GO AWAY FOREVER?  DEUCE WILL NEVER BE YOUR SON...ONLY MINE...MINE, MINE, MINE.  NOW WOULD YOU PLEASE JUST GO TO HELL WHERE YOU BELONG?” GZUS THUG...      P.S.OH BY THE WAY, A THUG IS SOMEONE WHO ENJOYS AND LIVES IN THE HIP-HOP CULTURE...NOT A KILLER, OR THEIF OR A CRIMINAL OF ANY SORT.  A JERSEY, BAGGY CLOTHES OR JEANS, A HAT TO THE BACK, SOME COOL LOOKIN' SHOES AND MAYBE A DOO-RAG...NOT A PISTOL PACKING KILLER, FOR AS YOU ALL KNOW, I HATE GUNS AND KILLING AND STEALING AND EVEN HURTING PEOPLE, ALTHOUGH I HAVE HURT A WOMAN WHO HAS TAKEN MY SON COMPLETELY AWAY FROM ME, AND FOR THAT I WILL BE FOREVER SORRY FOR MY SIN.  BUT I ASK YOU THIS, WHAT IS THE GREATER SIN...1 PUNCH TO THE FACE, OR TAKING A SON AWAY FROM HIS DADDY FOREVER. MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL, AND I BEG FOR ALL OF YOUR FORGIVENESS.  PLEASE WASH ME IN THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB TO MAKE ME WHITE AS SNOW, FOR I KNOW, THAT HE HAS SAVED AND FORGIVEN ALL OF YOU. GZUS THUG AKA ROBERT BISHOP ARDEN...AGE 29...14836 N. 61ST AVE.  GLENDALE, AZ 85306...602-564-9617...GZUSTHUG@MSN.COMAND AS ALWAYS... PEACE AND LOVE,ROB AND DEUCE.ETERNAL!