WOW, I WISH IT WAS MY STBX'S B-DAY EVERYDAY. I HAD MY BOY ON MONDAY, SO SHE COULD BE WITH HIM ON HER BIRTHDAY TUESDAY. WELL, SHE GAVE HIM TO ME TUESDAY NIGHT AT 9 TO SPEND THE NIGHT WITH ME FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE THE BREAK UP, AND I GOT TO BE WITH HIM UNTIL WEDNESDAY NIGHT AT 830. WHAT HER MOTIVE WAS...I COULD REALLY CARE LESS...WAS I HER 5TH AND LAST OPTION TO "BABYSIT" HIM...I DON'T KNOW. DID SHE GIVE HIM TO ME SO SHE COULD GET DRUNK OFF HER ASS AND THEN GET HER BRAINS UFFED OUT...LIKE I SAID, I DON'T KNOW, AND IT AIN'T MY JOB TO CARE ANYMORE...OR MAYBE SHE SAW AN OPPORTUNITY WHERE DEUCE COULD SPEND MORE TIME WITH HIS DADDY...WHATEVER THE CASE MAY BE, I WANT GOD TO BLESS HER, AND I TRULY MEAN THAT. FROM THE DAY MY SON WAS BORN, "BABYSIT" WAS ALWAYS A 4-LETTER WORD TO ME...I HAVE NEVER BABY SAT MY BELOVED SON...I HAVE SPENT EVERY PRECIOUS MOMENT BEING WITH MY SON THAT I HAVE EVER COULD. THAT IS WHY I ORIGINALLY TOOK THE TRANSFER THAT WAS 10 MINUTES AWAY INSTEAD OF AN HOUR AWAY...SO I COULD BE WITH MY SON AN EXTRA HOUR AND 40 MINUTES A DAY.ONE THING THAT SUZANNE'S FRIEND'S ALWAYS SAID ABOUT ME THAT MADE ME FEEL SO GOOD WAS THAT I WAS NEVER JUST A SITTER WITH DEUCE, BUT I WOULD HANG OUT WITH MY BABY BOY LIKE HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND IN THE ENTIRE WORLD...AND GUESS WHAT FOLKS, HE TRULY IS MY VERY BEST FRIEND AS WELL AS MY BELOVED AND ONLY BEGOTTEN SON SO FAR. ANYWAY, WE HAD A GREAT TIME FOR THOSE 34 HOURS, AND I AM STARTING TO FEEL LIKE A REAL DAD AGAIN. I GOT TO CORRECT HIM A LITTLE AND TEACH HIM A FEW MORE MANNERS WHICH MEANS A LITTLE MORE TO ME THAN JUST BEING HIS LITTLE PLAYMATE FOR THE FEW SUPERVISED HOURS A MONTH THAT I USED TO GET. HE IS VERY WELL BEHAVED AND SOOO POLITE AND KIND AT ALMOST 4 YEARS OLD. HIS MOM HAS DONE AN AWESOME JOB RAISING HIM THUS FAR, AND I JUST WANT TO ADD MY SUBTLE TOUCHES TO THE GREAT LITTLE PERSON THAT SHE HAS ALREADY BEGAN TO MOLD.TO WRAP IT UP, I JUST WANTED TO THANK ALL OF MY DS FRIENDS FOR THEIR "GOOD DAD" COMMENTS...IT IS MY ONE GOAL IN LIFE AS WELL AS MY GREATEST INSECURITY, AND YOUR GENUINE AND HEART FELT COMMENTS MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'M ON THE RIGHT TRACK AS WELL AS PROUD AND ALL WARM AND FUZZY INSIDE...THANKS AGAIN.ROB IS PEACE, AND DEUCE IS LOVE, AND WE WILL BE TOGETHER FOR ETERNITY.
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Ya know, you hit the nail on the head about the \"babysit\" thing. Back when I was still with my stbx, we fought about that constantly. When Iwanted to go out, he would tell me to find ANOTHER babysitter. I told him ....You are thier FATHER not a babysitter, so start acting like one. (he didn\'t like that). I had to comment on that part of your JE only becuz I have NEVER heard anyone bring that up before. . It\'s so true though!
Raising your son and being the best dad you can be SHOULD be your top focus....BUT....remember, hun, you need to also focus on yourself and keeping yourself \'sane\' thru this whole process too. It\'s a rough road. It\'s not gonna be easy with the rollercoaster of emotions. Your gonna be fine, don\'t get me wrong, but make sure you give yourself time to \"grieve\" so you can get passed this is a somewhat healthy way. Glad you are here at DS though. This place is awesome and will really get you thru the rough times....God Bless!
PS:......GO BEARS ! (lol)
You are on the right track with your son, so don\'t be so insecure about it. You\'re doing all you can to make your time together good QUALITY time. And that\'s what matters-NOT the QUANTITY. And I agree with you about the \"babysitting\" stuff, when it\'s your own child, it\'s called \"parenting\" not \"babysitting\"! :) You\'re awesome, don\'t doubt yourself when it comes to your son-you are doing right by him and you\'re doing a great job! Take care, hun! :) xxxx ellie