I did it.

On Monday I took a big step and I got a restraining order on my husband. It hurt so bad to do it. I felt very sorry for him. After I did it, I wished I could take it back. Then I had to remind myself that it will be a matter of time before he goes to his old ways. Of forcing me to have sex with him, verbally attacking me, threatening me, chocking me and making me feel like a terrible person. I got home and I told him and he basically did not believe me. Today is 3/27/2013 at 2:31 am they served his order of protection a little after 12 am. I did not know they serve them this last!
He was at the strip club (which I found disrespectful) spending money I could be spending on my counseling! The cops came I told them where he was and they waited on him. He almost got into a fight with one officer. He started calling me evil bitches and making me feel very bad.
I feel kind of bad because I just came from Wal-Mart to get some pain meds for this headache and I seen his car parked outside of his friend's house I turned around and went to it and something told me to look and he was in there sleep with the door lock. I wanted to say come home sleep in the bed it is not safe here, but chances are he is still drunk and he will make me have sex with him when I don't want to. I can not sleep because I am concerned about his safety.
Be despite everything I am proud that I made a first step even if it is only for a trail period of two week and when we go to court a decision will be made.
I told him we have two week to really work on this marriage and if we make no progress I will tell the judge I do not want it removed.