dreams

As I was falling asleep last night I was thinking about Baby Iysabella. I am very attached to her already. When she looks at me I can feel her sweet spirit and can know the essence of who she is already.
Then I was thinking about Eddie. I can still recall feeling his sweet spirit and can still recognize his essence. The feeling I got when I was around him. I can still hear his voice in my head (huge fear of mine that I will lose that ability). And so I cried as I fell asleep which I don't do as often anymore - just ocassionally.
I had a dream about Ed last night. He was behind me and he was hugging me. I could feel him but couldn't see him. Then he was in front of me standing on a incline and as is often in my dreams, he was just out of reach. He began to tell me that there is work in Heaven. But that's all he said. Then he sort of posed in a posture he often took and said, "when you see someone that stands like this its me."
And that was it. I woke up very sad. So tired of being sad...