Well we're away on vacation to Chicago & Minnesota. Minnesota is a beautiful, green tranquil place to me. I wish i could enjoy it more. Ken, (fiance) is being irritable complaining about everything possibly because his family is with us & he has a very conflicted relationship with his family. It all makes me miss Eddie more. We would laugh together when Ken became a bear & go off & have fun. I not only lost my son but my best friend.