Another night of no sleep!!!!!! I am so tired......  As soon as I laid down last night my pain tripled, I tried to get comfortable, I tried not to think about it, did not work.....The pain got so intense I had to get up, as soon as I stood I felt this horrible sharp pain and it was so bad I felt like I was going to pass out....I made my way to the bathroom, at this point I felt like I needed to pee really really bad....barely anything came out and it was not until I wiped that I noticed it was nothing but blood(I think some of the sores bustd open)....the pain kept getting worse and worse I finally managed to get to the kitchen to take yet another pain pill...when I finally made it back to bed I turned the heating pad on and laid back down....I was in so much my entire body was shaking, and I was sobbing....Justin kept rubbing my back and kept telling me it was going to be ok, I finally said I know, once I die it will all be ok....That upset him, I know I should not make comments like that but when the pain is that bad, honestly I would welcome ANY relief..... I was up until early this morning, again, and I think poor Justin was too...being I was up most the night crying and when I did doze off I would cry out from the pain when it woke me up.....I am still in a great deal of pain today, I do go to the doctor tomorrow....but I am not looking forward to it....another injection.....I do not know how much more I can take....I am so wore out from fighting this.........My body is wore out.....no one should have to suffer as much as we do.....