Yesterday I had a problem while working on my truck.I didn`t want to write about it but then I got to thinking that maybe it would help me to sort thing`s out.So last night I wrote about it and tagged it private just for me.Well today I just don`t know what I should do because of all the problems that I am having with finding a new NS and then all the problems with him saying that I should not of had the surgery and just been monitored until thing`s got worse.Any how back to what happened yesterday made me stop and think that maybe I should not be working on my truck at all.The problem is that I was under the truck and after fighting with rusted nut`s and bolt`s most of the day and only getting some of the stuff done that I wanted to,I finally decided to call it quit`s for the night.But after scooting out from under the truck I could not make my arm`s and leg`s do much of anything to help me get up.I couldn`t even roll over on my side on the creeper tha I was on until I got my trusty companion Baxter to come over and help me and then I could only just throw my arm around his shoulders and hope he would not try and jump on me thinking I was playing.Well it did work and he was real good about staying there and not thinking I wanted to play.I finally got enough strength back in my arm`s to be able to turn over and eventually push myself up to a setting position and then my back was screaming like I had a hot poker in my spinal cord all the way from my hip`s to the base of my skull.So I sat there for a while holding on to Baxter and just waiting for the pain to go away.It finally got better and I tried to get up but my leg`s still didn`t want to work right so it took a while before I could stand up.When I started to walk it felt like I was a arthritic old man trying to walk up a hill.I told Brendy when she got home from work what had happened and she said that maybe I should not work on my truck any more.I don`t know what to do,I want to get this truck done for myself as well as for the convinance of having another vehicle that we could use and not have to keep running from one place to the next and hurring up so that I am not late either going to doc appointment`s. Because of having to drop Brendy off at work and then rushing to the doc`s office and being late.It would make everything a whole lot easier on both of us if we had two car`s.We did think of talking to the High School and seeing if they could do the mechanical work as well as the paint and body work,since they do have all the classes and all the man power.I think I will talk to the instructor some time next week after I get through with all my doc appointments in Lubbock.I guess I should have thought of doing that in the first place instead of trying to kill myself and not getting anything done except for making a mess in the garage and hurting myself more.This SM is getting to be a real pain in the........I didn`t think that I would be in this much pain and not be able to do as much stuff as I am finding out that it is just to tiring  or painful to keep doing.I didn`t ever think that my retirement would be spent thinking about what I can and can`t do because of fear of what it will do to me physically and mentally.