Still feel bad,not much has changed,feel like I`m swimming up stream and not getting very far.My right hand is numb,neck is sore and stiff,can`t turn head much to the right without causing pain.Hope I can make it until July to see a neuro-doc about the SM.I just can`t afford to pay for doctor visit`s without insurance.I hope everyone is doing ok.It is almost like we have lost some of our friend`s on here,because they don`t write in their journal`s anymore and they don`t respond when you send them an encouraging message either.Brendy said that the depression community get`s really riled up sometimes.Maybe it`s just that time of year when every one is on vacation or thinking about going somewhere to get away for awhile.I hope it`s just that and not that they are quiting DS altogether.I`m hoping that my melt down this morning didn`t upset anyone,I know that I should keep my BIG MOUTH shut when I don`t feel good,but sometimes..........Think I will call it a night,so everyone be good and start writting more and keep in touch.M.