Hi!It`s me agian.Sometimes I forget what all my problems are because their are so many and with the brain injury and the memory problems, well you can see the problem.The official list of problems starts with the brain injury,five compression fractures,five slight bulging disc`s,three cyst`s in my spinal cord {syrnx}one that has been operated on in my neck,migraine headaches,IBS syndrome,artheritis,carpal tunnel in both wrist`s,surgery right wrist for torn tendons,right foot sugery for torn tendon,three surgeries right knee for ACL/MCL,cronic pain.I think that about covers all the problems that i have now for the good part.I have a real Angel for a wife who has stayed by me through all the bad times with my pain and sickness.I don`t know how I would ever be able to thank her enough for all the help that she has been,with Doctor`s visits,holding my hand when I`m sick at my stomache from the migraine`s.Or when I can`t remember because of the memory problems.
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The thing with the cysts in the spine is called Sysingomelia.
Miss spelled SYRINGOMYELIA in last entry.
Well today it`s rainy kind of cold,makes me hurt in just about every joint.Got up at 2:30am couldn`t sleep and had a headache.
Just one of those nights I guess one of these day`s I`ll get used to it.I feel like I`m getting to know all of the furniture in the house except the bed.It seem`s like my back hurts all the time lately.But I will never give in to it,I just can`t .If I do then I don`t know what would happen.Right now I can`t afford to go to any more Doctors because we don`t have any insurance so I`ll just have to deal with it the best that I can and hope &pray for the best. Thats all for today because even my finger`s are hurting.
Well here I am agian,sometimes you never now what to expect when you have syringomeylia.Yesterday I went with my Mom & Dad to an auction and after being on my feet for about an hour I thought that I was going to pass out,so I went back to the car and sat for awhile.The only problem is you can`t sit for very long either.By the time we left I was so sore and hurt so much that when I got home I had to take a hot bath just so that I could function.We had my brother and his wife and our parents over the night before to talk about clearing some land that has two houses on it for my wife &I to put a house on for us to live in.My Dad wanted me to do the demolition work with him.I thought that he knew that I can`t do anything like that anymore.I just can`t do things like that because of the risk involved to myself,what would happen I picked up something to heavy or turned the wrong way or stepped wrong with something heavy in my hand`s.I think a lot of people don`t understand because I don`t look like I have anything wrong with me,then they think that I can do anything that I used to be able to do.I don`t know if this has happened to anyone else but it happen`s to me a lot.Maybe I`m just too sensitive about it,I don`t know.I do know that when I was diagnosed I didn`t realy accept the fact that I had some defect that would not go away and that will cause problems for me the rest of my life.
Ahh feel the pain for You. Yeah by looking at someone it\'s hard to tell sometimes.Back,Neck and Head are the worst to have. So painful too.Hope you recover, I\'ll pray for you and hope the pain goes away for you! Just hang in there and don\'t lift heavy stuff either!:)
I went out today to the archery range to see if I could still shoot my bow.I don`t shoot at animals just target`s.I do it for fun ,it`s about the only thing I can do by myself.It gives me a chance to get away from everything and everyone so I can just be by myself an think [or not]about what has been happening for the last few year`s.today it was just so I could still shoot my bow.If you know anything about archery you know that it`s not easy to pull a bow.Any way I did it but not as good as I had hoped.After only about 18 arrow`s I new that I had to quit because my arm`s felt like they were about to fall off.My back was getting tight and pinched between my shoulders.It`s been over a year since I last tried to shoot my bow,so I thought it was time to try agian.Sometimes you have to see for yourself if you can or can`t do something.I guess one day I`ll have to give up archery,but I have to keep trying for myself.I hope that make`s sence.I guess what I`m trying to say is that I`m not ready to give up.I don`t want let SM to win and right now I have to do everything I can to not give in to the pain because if I do then SM win`s.
keep fighting monte, don\'t ever give up. sounds like you have a wonderful wife to be by your side. you have everything to get up and get going for. lots of love.........debbie
Went to see Spidey 3 today,really liked it except their falling into the Batman mode of killing everyone off.They need to stick to the way the comic book`s were written.Spiderman has to have the whole group of bad guy`s after him not just a few.Any how the movie was good I thought.I can`t sit forr that long in those seats,they are so uncomfortable it sure makes it hard to move afterward.Guess I sound like a grumpy old fart!!!Couldn`t sleep last night was up at 2:44am ,back was stiff and sore.So I finally got up then I couldn`t get the computer to do what I wanted it to do,just a really frustrating night all together.Sometimes it just seems like when it rain`s it pours.Speaking of rain ,it did yesterday allllll day.I used to like it when it rained,but since all the problems it hurts.Got to go for now bye.
Tried to send cathyb100 ahug and some encouragement last night but have had trouble with the web site all day. First I couldn`t log on it kept kicking it back saying that I used the wrong password.Then I finally got that straightened out and tried to send cathy the hug and the sight shut down after I tried to send it.
Alos got a strange e-mail,did not respond to it don`t think that it was one that was intended to be on this web sight.I don`t think this is a singles bar,and besides I`m a married to the Woman that I love.I think this person must be either more brain dammaged than I am or she just needs more help than she thinks.Nough said today bye.
Boy I just up dated My Page that everyone see`s,didn`t realize how hard it is to look at yourself and see what I could do at one time in my life and know that it will never be the same.I guess it`s God`s way of saying your doing to much,slow down and be more of a husband to your wife and pay attention to those who care about you instead of running around trying to start some big martial arts studio somewhere.I didn`t even know if I wanted it or if my instructor was the one that wanted it.But now I have my family arround and we alway`s have friend`s arround too.And now I also have a whole network of support in Daily Strength that is here if I need help.
Here it is Saturday and nothing going on.Not anythig to do and nothing on TV worth watching.I haven`t done much lately,just been hanging out with the wife for awhile.Can`t do much,took a muscle relaxer yesterday because of spasms,slept most of the day because of taking them.After taking them I`m alway`s out of it.Wish they had something that didn`t make me feel that way,but so far nothing else works and the Doc.dosen`t wantchange my med`s right now.Probably will change them after we get insurance though.When you have insurance they don`t mind switching your med`s around because the ins.co.pay`s most of the cost not you.I guess I should be greatful that they haven`t started switching them around but I haven`t went back to the doc.since the first of the year because of not having any insurance.I hope when I do go back the doc dosen`t get on my case about not going when I needed to,the way I look at it if you can`t pay for the visit,med`s,treatments[if needed]then I shouldn`t run up a bill that I can`t pay for.I`m on s.s. and I now that there is probably some way for them to pay for it but I hate paperwork and I don`t want to ask my to have to do it either.
Woke up toay at 4:30am with a stiff neck and a headache.Wasn`t in the best frame of mind,feel kind of blahh.One bright spot though was getting e-mail from PLR,it helps when you know someone will take the time to see how you are doing.It is a small world,hee brother is a maryial artist also.I know from experience what she went through being the ookie[that is what MA`s call the practice dummy]you get thrown around,knocked down,twisted,swept off your feet,just ganeraly abused by the instructor and the students,sometimes it`s a voluntary position,but in PLR`s case it probably wasn`t,since she is the sister who most likely was volunteered by her brother.
For some reason MyPage is not showing cathyb100as one of my friend`s.I know that I added her because every time I go to her page it has the thing under her pic.that say`s romove a friend.But she dosen`t show up on my friend`s list.I wonder why??????
Today we had Mom & Dad come over for dinner with my brother &his better half Peg.[she is the best].Peg.cooked and we all stuffed ourselves then we sat around and talked the rest of the afternoon,until Peg,& harvey had to go to Peg`s mom`s for their mom`s dat/birth day get together.I love my parent`s but my Mom need`s to go to the Doc.and have some test done for alheimers[sp]because she is having severe memory loss.We gave her a Mother`s Day card before we did anything else and before the meal was served she could not remember that we had given it to her.We had told her that the dinner was for her and she couldn`t think of why.This was after I had called them this morning to tell her not to forget to wear her corsage that all of us had gotten for her.Both my brother and I have talked to her and dad about getting tested but they will not do it.They have the money & insurance,I just don`t understand why they refuse to use it.Maybe it`s the generation,I don`t know.Got to run be back later.
Ahh That was nice you had your Folks over. Good Luck to your Mom and Happy Mothers Day to her.! :)