Christmas Eve

Christmas Eve is here finally.  This was a hard holiday and I was told it's because it's a month long holiday versus one day and I have to agree.  The commercials started before Thanksgiving and the songs soon followed.  It's felt like little darts at my heart all month.  Randy loved the holidays and was so joyous during this time.  Everything was "fun" with my hubby.  I think I miss that most of all ... the laughing and the joy of life.  Even being so sick that last month he still had moments of laughter, that's just the kinda guy he was.  Now just to get through New Years Eve.  Merry Christmas my love, I miss you more than you could ever know.