still trying to lose weight. people are calling me crazy and I shouldn't do it. I'm going to do it and it will happen! I'm not gonna go anorexic again I'm just gonna lose weight and be happy with my body again. I wan't to be 105-110lbs again. not 120-125 I'm done feeling fat. 
I'm also sick of my brother treating me like shit. the past 3-4 days I've wanted to slice my arm open because of the way he makes me feel. I feel so worthless! he's a total jerk and I can't go to my parents about it cause he claims I'm not nice to him. I am, I say something nicely and he bites my head off and calls me stuff and just makes me feel like nothing. So many of my scars are because of him. I'm DONE!!!