back to work

I went back to work 2day 4 the 1st time since i lost Macy. I lasted 3hrs. longer than i then i thought i would. I just hate being there. I gave way a few  of my shifts 4 the week. I need to decide if i still want to be there. Im so confused i cant even make a decision about what to have 4 dinner let alone this. I dont know if i feel this way bc i hate the job or bc all that has happened lately. I think the reason i stay is 4 the money. Oh i am so confused