hey its me again,,,right now its so terrible i feel like crap i seroise just want to die,,,,i was thinking bout it this weekend but i talked to a couple friends and they help me out alot but its still so hard..i want to cut i really do but i cant becouse i really dont want to disspoiont someone and its so hard on me i feel like i am stranging its relly hurtind me...i am going in to my gudence councleer later today to get help i think i really do need it or mabey just a person to listen to me for a while let them know everything thats going on,,,mabey not jugde me for what they see but actull understand me????so i hope it works out well,,,the coucnler is really nice probly thats the only reason i am going to see him couse i think i can trust hium and i have seen him deal with one of my friends and i know that he actull cares and that he will try and help the best he can .;.well i will talk to you later i guess,,i tell you whats going on bit its still hard really hard i hope ot can turn out so much better...please...i hope so...